CD17 10DPO

I figured I'd update my post about my doctor's appointment with the RE. It went very well, much to my surprise. I am still overwhelmed with this guilt of going behind Dr. B's back, when I really shouldn't have it. I guess I feel so indebted to him for his compassion in trying to help us through this journey. It's a rare thing when you experience a connection with a doctor and unfortunatley, all of my connections with doctors are specialists. Dr. B will be on vacation/seminars for the next two weeks while being on call. I am just hoping with my medical release form that I won't piss him or his staff off.

I am going to do one more month of Clomid, thank dear god! This is my last month after about a year of being on it. I will be doing the Clomid Challenge and an IUI this month. My doctor seems rather hopeful which is promising. Thankfully she didn't say anything about my flab... I am hoping she realizes that I am trying to maintain weight loss and just am not having any luck.

She also wants me to get off of unecessary medications... YIPPEE!!

We may try gonadotropins which scares the holy hell out of me, but I am willing to try anything once. I don't know if my pocket book will like it, but it's worth a shot, literally.

She did an ultrasound right then and there and said my ovaries were HUGE. She wants me to call when AF comes for another one. She said she's there 7 days a week and they never close...

This is a good change, but still in the back of my mind... I feel like I have hurt Dr. B... These emotions are horrible!

TWW